Tomorrow I’ll stop by and silently wish you a Happy Mother’s Day. A woman I’ve never met.
I’ll offer up, yet again, a silent thank you and many thoughts of appreciation to you — my soon-to-be mother-in-law. I’ll tell you how much I love and adore your son, though it’s quite impossible to put into words. I’ll tell you all about our upcoming wedding, the plans and just how much I can’t wait to be his wife. I’ll tell you about how he saved me from the depression that almost robbed me of this precious life. I’ll share with you how he not only loves me, but respects and cares for me too.
I know I have you to thank.
I’ll stay a few more moments, imagining a different future for you; play the ‘what if’ and ‘if only’ game – as I often do. Imagining what it would be like to meet the woman he often says I’m like.
I have so many moments when I wish you were here, enjoying the little moments with us and celebrating the big ones. Creating memories over bbqs and holiday dinners; baby showers and weddings; – I’m sure you’d love it all.
But then I realize – you already are.
You’re here within your sons; two men I love quite dearly.
When I listen to their stories of you and their childhood, I struggle to piece together the woman beyond the picture. I hear so many memories of you from the boys and your sisters – all filled with love and sadness. Though time has made it easier for them to share, it hasn’t erased their longing.
I hate that I’ll never meet you; the woman who has given me the single love of my life.
You, my sweet mother-in-law, have given me so much and all I can offer in return is countless “Thank-you’s” and graveside flowers. It seems so immensely inadequate.
I truly hope that wherever you are, you know how much you’re missed. Not only by your two boys, but by the daughter-in-law who loves a woman she doesn’t know. Because without you, I wouldn’t have him – and that’s a life I can’t even imagine.
Happy Mothers Day Julie.