It’s been in the making for some time.
Vic has known it. Cindy has known it. The doctors knew it. Everyone knew – I stayed in denial. Head securely buried in the sand – glorious ignorance. Well not really. I seen it; I just sadly decided to ignore it.
This morning at 9:30am I officially withdrew from the Fall semester.
I guess I should say it was a scary decision. A stomach ache in the making. It wasn’t. I felt nothing but a flood of relief just course through me. I was content with the outcome of things and for the first time in the last 32 months, I felt at peace. I was excited – almost giddy really. It was those feelings that helped assure me it was a great decision.
Time to practice a little self care.
No more forcing myself to put one foot in front of the other – there’s a bounce in my step again. No more skipping out on family and friends because I didn’t have time for lunch, or birthday celebrations or baby and wedding showers. I have had more satisfying conversations in the last two weeks than I have in the last two and a half years – no joke. I have had several lunch dates filled with delicious food and company – without looking at the time even once. I have gotten to take drives just to look around and enjoy the company of my fiance. Taken time to finish a little overdue spring cleaning AND oh my gosh I’ve read novels just – to – READ! Be still my heart. I have missed out on so many little things during my time being busy for the sake of being busy.
So what’s next?
Me time. A lot of QUALITY time with friends and family. Enjoying them once again.
And the official day of becoming a true full time photographer. No more splitting time between working, school, and my business. No more sleepless nights juggling priorities. Just me, my camera, laptop and you. I can finally get back to writing. But more than that; I can finally get serious about my writing. Continuing my submissions for publication, growing my blog, and soaking up every moment I am thankfully able to photographing my wonderful clients.
I am looking forward to the future. It may hold a Winter semester, being a full time business owner or a new career. Either way, I’m ecstatic.
For now, I leave you for my little Gameboy Advance and a guilt free game of Super Mario 3 – I found it while cleaning and it was fully charged – totally fate’s way of saying I needed to make sure it still worked 😉