What Comes Next?

It’s been in the making for some time.

Vic has known it.  Cindy has known it.  The doctors knew it.  Everyone knew – I stayed in denial.  Head securely buried in the sand – glorious ignorance.  Well not really.  I seen it; I just sadly decided to ignore it.

This morning at 9:30am I officially withdrew from the Fall semester.

I guess I should say it was a scary decision.  A stomach ache in the making.  It wasn’t.  I felt nothing but a flood of relief just course through me.  I was content with the outcome of things and for the first time in the last 32 months, I felt at peace.  I was excited – almost giddy really.  It was those feelings that helped assure me it was a great decision.

Time to practice a little self care.

No more forcing myself to put one foot in front of the other – there’s a bounce in my step again.  No more skipping out on family and friends because I didn’t have time for lunch, or birthday celebrations or baby and wedding showers.  I have had more satisfying conversations in the last two weeks than I have in the last two and a half years – no joke.  I have had several lunch dates filled with delicious food and company – without looking at the time even once.  I have gotten to take drives just to look around and enjoy the company of my fiance.  Taken time to finish a little overdue spring cleaning AND oh my gosh I’ve read novels just – to – READ!  Be still my heart.  I have missed out on so many little things during my time being busy for the sake of being busy.

So what’s next?

Me time.  A lot of QUALITY time with friends and family.  Enjoying them once again.

And the official day of becoming a true full time photographer.  No more splitting time between working, school, and my business.  No more sleepless nights juggling priorities.  Just me, my camera, laptop and you.  I can finally get back to writing.  But more than that; I can finally get serious about my writing.  Continuing my submissions for publication, growing my blog, and soaking up every moment I am thankfully able to photographing my wonderful clients.

I am looking forward to the future.  It may hold a Winter semester, being a full time business owner or a new career.  Either way, I’m ecstatic.

For now, I leave you for my little Gameboy Advance and a guilt free game of Super Mario 3 – I found it while cleaning and it was fully charged – totally fate’s way of saying I needed to make sure it still worked 😉


New Adventures

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