Loner. Wall-flower. Stuck-up. Antisocial.
You name it, I’ve been called it at various times in my life. I denied each claim and tried to defend the way I was. I didn’t consider myself a loner and I definitely wasn’t stuck-up. Far from it. It was something that sat constantly in the back of my mind. Nagging every now and then. Was there something wrong with me?
I was terrified of public speaking. That is until an instructor I had in college forced me out of my very comfortable shell. When an assignment (presentation included) was the bulk of your course grade, you have no other choice, but to get over the fear – or at least get good at hiding it.
I hate parties. Where I’m forced to mingle with strangers who usually have a drink in their hand and loud stories to tell. Some of which make absolutely no sense this far along the drink count.
And lordy I HATE being the center of attention. Turn that spotlight on me and I’d sooner crawl under something. I won’t. No worries, I’m not that weird, creepy person who lurks around corners.
Most people wouldn’t say much was out of sorts if I were in any of these situations. I can and do deal with them very well, but it takes every ounce of energy I have. I’m just good at hiding it.
Until very recently I honestly had no idea how to describe my personality to someone. I was watching a webinar about a week or two ago and this world renown photographer was describing her struggle with the exact same thing. I sat here almost in shock.
“YES! . . . YES! . . . YESSSSS!”
This was me. Yelling at my laptop screen as Jasmine Star described how she was ever the introvert. Honestly, who knew there was a name for it?! Not me! I sat here weightless, so excited that my awkwardness was being explained PERFECTLY!
After the webinar was over I frantically Google searched ‘Introvert’. I know I’m not alone in my excitement when Google confirms something you’re searching for. That “AH HA! So it IS true” moment. That was me that day. Oh yes.
“Introverts tend to be more reserved and reflective . . . characterized as people whose energy tends to expand through reflection and dwindle during interaction . . . often take pleasure in solitary activities such as reading, writing, using computers, hiking . . . artists, writers, sculptors, engineers, composers, and inventors are all highly introverted . . . likely to enjoy time spent alone and find less reward in time spent with large groups of people, though he or she may enjoy interactions with close friends . . . trust is usually an issue of significance in a companion . . . they refer to concentrate on a single activity at a time and like to observe situations before they participate . . . they are more analytical before speaking . . . easily overwhelmed by too much stimulation from social gatherings and engagements . . .”
Anyone who knows me can confirm this is 110% truth. SO very much so. J* didn’t just explain characteristics of an introvert, but how one can still be successful in building a business. Thank God! As well as how we can use it to our advantage by recognizing it in our clients. Once we become comfortable in our own awkwardness it becomes easier recognizing it in others and helping them become comfortable with it during your interactions.
As a photographer, I LOVE capturing images for you. Creating a story for you. But as a person, I struggle with constantly meeting new people. Must times you’ll never say it, but sometimes I’ll have my moments. I’m working on it.
So when you feel weary about being in front of my camera, rest easy, you’re not alone! We’ll laugh through it together! Most people aren’t natural models, stop worrying about it!! We’re going to get great images for you to share with your friends and family. I’m a lifestyle photographer with an editorial/photojournalistic twist. What the heck does that mean? That means that although I’ll get the images you want of you and the kids or you and your parents posing just so, I capture things as the happen. I capture your natural moments; your natural beauty.
This is easiest with toddlers and children. They don’t think about me or my camera, they just want to be silly and have fun.
So don’t fret over your uneasiness or shyness. Embrace it! I’m here to capture you as you, not that side of you. No one will see the shy girl/guy when they look at your images. They’ll see how beautiful you are!
And now that I’ve written a novel on my new found discovery, here’s a peek of what I’m working on: